How Do I Say Goodbye?

Tonight I told my grandma I love you for the last time and gave her a kiss as she drifted off to heaven. After six long years she finally earned her wings. Oh how my heart aches as I struggle to piece together all the memories of one of the strongest and most wonderful women I know. She spent her whole life worrying about us and we spent the last six years worrying about her. Tonight that all ended. She is at peace.

As I try to put my thoughts into words over the next few days, I will leave this post with the lyrics to the new Caitlin and Will song "Address in the Stars." I cannot contain my emotions everytime I hear this, but every word echoes how I feel today.

I stumbled across your picture today
I could barely breathe
The moment stopped me cold and grabbed me like a thief
I dialed your number but you wouldnt be there
I knew the whole time but its still not fair
I just wanted to hear your voice
I just needed to hear your voice

What do I do with all I need to say?
So much I wanna tell you everyday
Though it breaks my heart I cry these tears in the dark
I write these letters to you but they get lost in the blue
Cause theres no address in the stars

Now I'm drivin through the pitch black dark
I'm screaming at the sky oh cause it hurts so bad
Everybody tells me all I need is time
Then the mornin rolls in and it hits me again light aint nothin but a lie

Without you here with me I don't know what to do
I'd give anything just to talk to you
Though it breaks my heart oh it breaks my heart
All I can do is write these letters to you
But there's no address in the stars

I love you grandma. Please watch over me and the boys and keep us safe until we meet you again in heaven.